My Saturday.

I hope you're enjoying your Saturday evening. I have been looking forward to a Quilt class this morning that was given by a gal in our ward, Sherri. The plan is to do a block a month and at the end of the year we'll have ourselves a quilt. Kris and I both signed up together. I ended up hating every minute of it because I came down with a major case of anxiety. It kind of took me by surprise but it shouldn't have since I tend to get performance anxiety. As soon as I feel like people are watching me or are waiting for me so they can move on, I make mistakes, my mind goes foggy, and I get really embarrassed. I was near tears so I said I didn't feel good, packed it up and bolted before I became an embarrassing mess of tears. Ugh. It's so silly. I thought being with a friend would make it easier but I was wrong and just got overwhelmed. I really wasn't expecting that to happen so it kind of left me in the dumps all day. I brought the kits for January and February home thinking I could maybe teach myself but the reality is I probably won't. It's pretty complicated and the tips from Sherri would be awesome and probably insure that I know what I'm doing in the future. I just don't know if it's worth it. I don't think I would actually complete the quilt if I tried to do it all at home. I'm just not sure I want to go back but I'm afraid I'd be leaving them hanging since my blocks were cut. Ugh. Why do I do this to myself.

I'm kind of feeling a bit better now. My niece Lauren called earlier in the week begging to spend the night. We are watching Taken. I was hoping she would go to church with us in the morning but her parents want her in their ward so she has to leave at 8:30 in the morning! It's nice to have her here and I hope she continues to want to hang out with me and have sleep overs once she's in high school! That is next year. Scary. I just hope she's never to cool for her favorite aunt. :)